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One
It
was hot. The brown dry earth seared the feet and the
large granite boulders scattered over the hillside burned
the palms of hands. The sky was malevolent blue and
achingly bright. Far overhead, almost near the sun,
kites circled and circled and circled.
There
were two people climbing the hill. The tall, thickset
man was a few yards ahead of the woman, and he stopped
to rest and wait for the woman to catch up. He wiped
the sweat off his forehead and flicked the moisture
at a boulder. It sizzled and evaporated. He tugged at
his shirt, but the sweat sucked it back against his
skin. If there had been shade, even a small tree or
a bush, he would have liked to rest under it. There
was little except these vast boulders that seemed to
have tumbled down from nowhere to rest on the side of
the hill.
A
couple of hundred yards below him, pulled off the narrow
tarmac road, was their car. It glittered. The road curved
and wound through the landscape, passing now and then
a hill such as the one he stood on, until he could no
longer see where it went. There was no traffic, although
now and then he sensed the movement of people in the
distance.
The woman
reached his side. Her face was the color of the earth
and her makeup cut by rivulets of sweat. She started
to lean against the boulder and then leaped away.
"Damn,"
she said. There was no vehemence. She was too breathless
for that.
"You're
sure dressed wrong for this."
"I
couldn't wear trousers," she answered with irritation.
"And I wasn't going to dress like a native."
She
patted her face with a tiny cotton handkerchief. The
powder came off in patches, making her skin look afflicted.
She wore a flowered cotton dress that pinched in on
her narrow waist and then abruptly flowed out over her
stiff petticoats. She had a thin gold chain around her
neck, a brooch of a butterfly made of metal and cheap
stones above her left breast. On her right wrist she
wore two gold bangles.
She was nearly as tall as he, and was certainly pretty.
Her face was small, oval, with high cheekbones, a wide
mouth, and large brown eyes. Her hair had been carefully
permed, but the morning's walk up the hillside had dampened
and flattened it around her forehead and the back of
her neck.
"C'mon."
He
began to climb again. The path they followed was narrow
and well worn. It wound around the boulders and was
edged on either side by tufts of spare grass. A stone
cut his foot, and Gunboat Jack hopped.
"Did
we have to be barefoot?"
"Yes.
This is supposed to be a holy hill," Gertrude said
and giggled as Gunboat hopped some more. "At least
that's what the natives say because of him."
Gunboat peered upwards. They had another two hundred
yards to go. He caught a glimpse of a thatched roof.
"He
better be good."
"He's
supposed to be very holy."
They
reached the top. The thatch he had seen was only a roof
held up by bamboo poles. It was about twenty feet square,
and twenty people were sitting in its shade. They looked
up with open curiosity at Gunboat and Gertrude, and
two women shifted away, giving them room to sit. Gunboat
moved forward, grateful for the shade.
"You
shouldn't sit with them," Gertrude said.
"I
sure as hell ain't stand in' out there in the sun,"
Gunboat said, and sat heavily down on the flat earth.
There was a slight breeze on the hilltop, and with the
shading it felt quite cool. When he craned around, he
could see nearly the whole countryside: flat with small
patches of bright emerald-green rice fields and shining
squares of water tanks. There was a village in the distance
he hadn't noticed before, and women, brightly clothed
in reds and blues, working in the fields.
Gertrude sat. It was difficult 'with her starched petticoats.
They billowed up and out, revealing her thighs, and
she tried to hold the skirt down as if it were a blowing
parachute. The women giggled, and Gertrude glared at
them. She finally settled to rest in a kneeling position.
"Where
is he?" Gunboat Jack asked.
Gertrude
shrugged. There was a small cave at the top of a slight
slope. There were a few fresh flowers, bits of coconut,
and some fruit outside the entrance. Otherwise it looked
bare and uninhabited. The others under the thatched
roof were squatting facing the open mouth of the cave.
It was
quiet and calm on the hilltop. Gunboat could hear only
the breeze whispering through the thatch and the occasional
clink of a bangle or an anklet. Once or twice the kites
high in the sky called: a long, lonely sound. They keened,
as if mourning their solitude. Even Gerty, and he was
grateful for that, remained silent, though he could
sense her glaring at any of the natives who turned to
meet her eye.
Gunboat turned when he heard voices. A couple came over
the rim of the hill. They were in their late twenties,
and the woman carried a child in her arms. The child
appeared asleep, but the tender way in which they handled
him made Gunboat suspect he was sick. He made room for
them. The husband held the child until the woman was
settled, cross-legged, and then laid it gently on her
lap. She was beautiful. Her face was heart shaped with
a sensual mouth and liquid brown eyes, tinged with sadness,
that filled the face. There was a diamond in her nose
and silver rings on her toes. She kept her head down
as if sheltering the child from his look.
"What's
wrong?" Gunboat asked.
The
woman made no answer. The husband, sensing the meaning,
turned his palms up and looked skywards.
"They
think that sadhu can cure him?" he asked Gertrude.
She hesitated, wavering between contempt and belief.
"Possibly. He is supposed to have many powers."
A
youth came out of the mouth of the cave. He wasn't more
than fourteen. His head was shaven, and he stood straight.
He wore only a flimsy cotton cloth around his waist.
He came straight to Gunboat and beckoned them both.
"No,"
Gunboat said. "He should see this couple."
"He
knows we're more important than them," Gertrude
said and scrambled to her feet.
"How
does he know we're here?"
"He
knows," she said. "And he knows about the
child too." The youth turned, and they followed.
It was
gloomy and cool in the cave. They smelled incense and
fresh water. Gunboat waited until his eyes had adjusted.
There was very little in the cave. A few earthenware
pots, and a fireplace made of mud. The cave was a dozen
feet deep, and the roof of uneven height.
A man
sat cross-legged on a worn deerskin at the farthest
end. His eyes were closed; his beard, black streaked
gray, began just below his cheekbones and fell to his
chest. He was slim and straight and his skin, the color
of old gold, appeared to shine in the light from the
single oil lamp. It was a dry shine.
The youth
gestured; they sat. Gertrude knelt, trying to appear
as if she were not in front of this man in a loincloth.
"Does
he speak English?" Gunboat whispered.
Gertrude
shrugged. The youth withdrew to the opening of the cave.
The sadhu appeared unaware of their presence. Gunboat
noticed he hardly seemed to breathe.
"Yes,"
he finally said, though his eyes remained closed.
"Shouldn't
you have seen that sick child?"
"I
already have." It was an accentless voice, so soft
they had to bend forward to hear.
"Were
we more important than them?"
"No."
He chuckled. "An American boxer and an Anglo lady
are as important as everyone else."
"How
do you know who I am?" Gunboat Jack asked, and
strained for the reply.
"I
know."
Gunboat
wished the man would open his eyes. It was disconcerting
talking to him. Gertrude rustled uneasily.
"You
seen me fight?"
"No."
"You
disapprove?"
The man
chuckled again. "Why should I? It is an honorable
profession. Here we have wrestlers."
"Back
home too," Gunboat said and found he was enjoying
the man's company. "I used to be pretty good. Boxer
I mean. I didn't win no championship. . . but I was
good." He wished now he had won a title back home.
He wasn't given the breaks.
"Only
one man at a time can be champion. It was not your time."
He paused. "You are a man of honor?"
"You
bet I am. I didn't take no dives. I made my money straight."
Without
warning, the sadhu opened his eyes. They looked directly
at Gunboat Jack. The eyes were pale brown, almost the
color of beach sand. They appeared not to look, yet
they saw everything of him.
"You
are also a man of courage." It was a statement.
"Yes."
"Then
what you have come to ask for depends on a test of these
two qualities in you."
"They
won't give," Gunboat said.
"If
you hold to them, you will be victorious; if you let
go of them you will be defeated." The sadhu hadn't
blinked once.
"What
the hell does that mean?" Gunboat considered his
own question in the long silence. "So if I want
to get home," he finally replied to himself, "I
will have to be true to myself."
"That
depends on you. It is going to be difficult."
"What
will this test be?" Gunboat asked. If he knew ahead
of time, he could be careful.
"It
will happen soon. In your profession."
"I
haven't fought for years."
"You
will not need to fight." His eyelids began to lower
slowly. It seemed as if a door was closing.
"What
about me?" Gertrude asked quickly. The lids were
half closed, considering her.
"You
will leave your home to be forever a stranger, for that
is your wish."
"With
Gunboat?" She glanced at Gunboat and smiled shyly.
"You
love him?"
"Yes."
The sadhu chuckled. It sounded pleasant, benevolent. He had
been sitting, arms outstretched, with his wrists resting
on his crossed knees and the palms facing upwards. The
thumbs and forefingers touched to form circles. Now
he closed one hand, and opened it a few moments later.
There was a small pile of white ash in the center of
the palm. He lifted his hand up to his face and blew.
The ash was fine as dust and delicately perfumed.
"Love
is like this vibudhi. Visible one moment, invisible
the next," he said. "Your love will depend
on his actions."
Gertrude
snorted and shifted as if to rise. She wished she hadn't
asked. Nor come to see this fakir.
"How'd
you do that?" Gunboat asked. He stared at the empty
palm.
"That was a trick," Gertrude said.
"Isn't
everything?" the sadhu said gently. He then addressed
Gunboat although there was no perceptible movement to
his head or to the last peep of his eyes. Only his voice
appeared to shift direction. "You will meet a woman
of your own race. Be careful. She holds your destiny."
He paused. "And a prince. If you wish it, he will
change your life."
"I
don't know any prince." Gunboat spoke only to a
silent image.
The sadhu's
eyes closed. They sat awhile, but the man appeared to
have withdrawn from them. Gunboat leaned forward and
reached out.
"Gunboat."
There was panic in Gertrude's voice.
Gunboat
touched the palm on which the ash had materialized.
Delicately he drew his finger across the palm. The sadhu
did not stir. Gunboat drew back. The ash was on his
fingertip. He smelled. It was sweet and dry.
A FURTHER EXCERPT
He looked down at himself as he dried. He was
still strong, somewhat flat-bellied. The legs looked
good, but Gunboat knew how deceptive the appearance
was. In a ring they'd turn to jelly in two rounds. He
dressed in clean cotton trousers and a shirt, took another
pull on the Indian whiskey, and went out. The evening
was so cool. It was difficult to remember the heat of
the day now. He strolled towards the traffic island
and began up Brigade Road.
The sidewalk up Brigade Road was crowded with
young people. They were college students and some schoolboys
and girls. During the day, the sidewalks were nearly
empty. Once the sun set they came in groups, the boys
in one, the girls in another. They looked at each other,
talked aloud, giggled, even exchanged jokes with the
other group, but never quite met. When they tired they
adjourned to Koshy's, a small coffeehouse. It served
good coffee, excellent masala dosais, and it had the
only jukebox in town. Gunboat could hear the juke now.
The song drifting across the streets with the cafe lights
was "Blue Suede Shoes."
A few doors further up, and across the street,
was Gunboat's. The signboard needed a coat of paint
and was dimly lit. Gunboat turned in, climbed the narrow
steps, and entered the billiards saloon. There were
four tables, stagnant green in the shielded lights,
and a bar at the far end with stools for the patrons.
Alongside three walls were raised-wood and cane-bottomed
benches and overhead a slow-moving fan. The walls were
bare and needed a whitewash; the coir carpet was frayed.
Only one of the tables was taken. A boy was playing
by himself and, Gunboat noticed, he was good. Three
men Gunboat didn't know stood to one side, watching
with deference and admiration. They appeared to be witnessing
a miracle. Gunboat took the cold beer left for him on the
counter by Krishnan the bar- tender, and settled himself
on the stool.
The boy was tall, nearly five nine. He was thickset,
well muscled for an Indian, and stood very straight.
He moved like an athlete, surely, confidently, around
the table. His eyebrows were startlingly thick: A little
finger of black hair arched above his
eyes and joined above his nose. He had a full woman's
mouth and a firm jaw. There was a scar on his cheek,
just above the line of the jawbone.
He didn't look at Gunboat but continued playing, firmly
stroking the cue and spinning one ball against the other.
He finally missed, and the three men sighed in sympathy.
The boy shrugged. Gunboat guessed him to be fifteen
or sixteen. One of them stepped forward and took the
cue, as if it were a gift.
" Are you Gunboat Jack?" The boy spoke
from where he stood, across the length of the room.
"Yeah."
The boy considered the reply. It hung in the
silence between them, which gave the reply a reverberation
of meanings. The three men, having once glanced in his
direction, now stood a few feet back, arms behind their
backs, studying the boy. They
looked alike: slim, dark, servile. They dressed alike
too: white dhotis, long white open-neck shirts, and
slippers.
The boy
said, "You killed a man once I am told."
Gunboat
decided he did not like the boy. He was too confident,
too much an adult for a child his age. There was little
doubt he expected an answer; his bearing was that of
someone used to giving commands. Gunboat considered
throwing him out, but suspected it would not be a judicial
move. There would be endless trouble. The boy suggested
ripples of unseen power, which made Gunboat dislike
him that much more.
"Yeah.”
The
boy nodded, as if this expanded his understanding. He
had been solemn until now. He smiled. It made him boyish
for the first time; gave him a vulnerability he had
not had before. He also had dimples. "I would like
you to teach me how you did that.”
"Oh
Jesus!" Gunboat uttered under his breath.
He
turned his back on the boy. Remembering…
He
knew he could never forget The Tiger. The man's face
was still so clear and that long fall, a moment after
Gunboat's punch, would never end. A man had died and
the blame lay heavy on his soul. He had no wish to be
constantly reminded.
"Go
to hell," Gunboat said and turned from the boy.
The
three men looked worried, frightened even. The boy nodded
solemnly but didn't move away. Gunboat felt his back
studied. The beer tasted bitter and bad. He pushed it
away.
"It
couldn't be helped," the boy said.
"For
Christ's sake, why do you all say that?" Gunboat
shoved the glass. It fell and smashed. The liquid turned
the faded coir carpet red. Blood-colored.
The
boy would have turned, except he sensed the expectations
of his retainers. He felt trapped between the white
man's hostile back, embarrassed and unsure how to handle
that spurt of anger, and the eyes of Swami, Kanni, and
Vikrant. One was his valet, the other his chauffeur,
the third his father's aide-de- camp. He was also unused
to rejection.
He gestured
to his men to wait and walked over to the bar. Gunboat
ignored him. The boy didn't notice the barman who snapped
to attention and poured Gunboat a new beer at the boy's
gesture.
"I
am Nataraj," he announced formally. It sounded
like an edict. He relented. "But I was given a
nickname. Nicky. I am sorry I offended you." His
accent was immaculately British.
"You
want to kill a man?"
"Not
particularly." He smiled. "I said it more
as a compliment. I thought a fighter would take that
as praise."
"It
ain't."
"I
have apologized." Nicky spoke stiffly.
"Okay,
I accept it. What do you want me for?"
"I'd
like to learn to box." He corrected himself: "I
need to."
“A
guy like you doesn't need to do anything." Gunboat
felt the boy's assurance, like mail armor.
"That's
true." He hadn't expected that power of observation
in Gunboat. Boxers were not intelligent men. "My
needs are my own. No one is forcing me."
"Have
you ever boxed before?"
"Never.
I am athletic and play nearly every sport well."
He said this simply; an accepted gift of life.
"Things
come easily, huh?"
"Yes,
I play cricket, hockey, football, polo, squash, and
tennis."
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